the short wanderer

For the past one year or so I think I've been making a lot of modifications to my prayers. By prayers I mean, the du'a I make every time after solah. It's a good thing I guess. If I have been reciting the same prayer for the past 24 years of my life, it may become more of a routine kind of thing, and it tends to get more and more meaningless as time passes. My du'a, unsurprisingly, would reflect something I am in need of or at least, something I desire or have a slight interest in at that particular moment.  Some of the du'as that I've started making recently are very basic stuff. Being away from home, I've always struggled with praying on time or even just praying in general. Winter months sucks; it makes you feel like staying in your bed being nicely wrapped in your duvet every morning. I lost count of the days I would just wake up and it's freezing cold, and I would just blatantly ask "God, do I need to pray? Why do I need to? Huhu" and slow