The CV

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful.

Hey, it’s the time for a new year! And everyone is already up with their list of resolutions. To be honest I don’t really have a specific one, but on every 1st Jan I have a wish that the new year will not get tired of teaching me to become a better person.

New Year, new A. A for adventure. And of course for every A there’s always a B, for beginning. And if you have always heard people saying that beginning is always the hardest, I am afraid I have to tell you that it's true, because after B comes C, the challenges. They will always come together (like the date, the BC XD) Anyway I am here not to talk about alphabets hahaha but just writing a note to self as a reminder, what I should be doing for this new year.

Being organised might not really be my thing. I mean, I know people who are better in organising things than I do. My roommate has been browsing through all the clubs and societies (and she might go through the volunteering and internship opportunities as well later on) just to make sure she is up onto something that is non-academic for the next term. I have no idea how our second term is going to be but one my seniors said it’s going to be really busy because it’s the final term of the year so maybe everything is going to be crammed into this term before the break and the exams season start. Talking about things to do in university life, it reminds of one thing that I have heard this term quite a loooooot of times.

The CV. Every single opportunity provided in the university (maybe most, not all) will always be related to the CV. ‘It will look good on your CV’ echoed countless times for this past few months. While actually figuring out what should I do to make a good CV, I was strucked by that deep thought again.

There’s another CV that I keep forgetting to work on really hard for. It’s not a curriculum vitae. It’s a list of your ‘commitments’ and ‘virtues’. It’s different from the common CV that we have heard of because it’s not you who have been tracking a record of your ‘commitments’, it’s written by the angels that have been ‘watching you from your shoulders’.

When 'that day' comes, would Allah accept my CV? Would He approve everything I had commit to all this while? Would He say yes to all my virtues? Would He warrant me an entry to be one of His ‘employees’ of His Jannah? Would He let me in? I will never know. If I am to ask this question to myself, “What is your new year resolution, my girl?” it would be about working hard for 2 CVs. I will, insya Allah, I will try to make the most out of my life for these 2 CVs with the hope that I won’t be neglecting any of the two at any point of life. “Any point”, I try to promise myself. So my Lord please help me in going through this whole thing, because You won’t put me here if I can’t work this out, would You? :’)

At the end of the day, I am always the traveller. I might have planned my life from A to Z but You will always be my ultimate travel agent, You know all the routes that are definitely beyond my knowledge. You know all the sequences and my ‘time limit’. I might have planned my life from A to Z, but who knows after Adventure, Beginning and Challenge, then D is meant for Death to come after me?

"Burung-burung hijau terbang

Rohku tenang melayang

Syurga Firdausi menungguku datang

Derita hanya sementara

Biar aku nestapa

Demi bahagia untuk selamanya"

If it’s 2018 ya Allah, if it is written to be in 2018, then please ya Allah, even though You know that I know I don’t deserve it,

Grant me Syahid. 

Because that will look good on my CV…

For You :) 

Life is more than just a living. Death might not come today or tomorrow, or even this year, but it will, one day, definitely. If ‘getting a good job’ is the purpose of working on an excellent ‘dunya’ CV, then the hereafter would be the motivation for the purpose of furnishing the second one. So 2018, let us ‘memburu syahid’ then? It won’t be easy, (well what is easy in life anyway?) but Insya Allah, may Allah ease everything for us for this year.

On a side note, dear friends, if it should ever strike you that I am getting a little overconfident in my own self, or giving less pains to a work than it deserves, kindly whisper ‘Syahid’ in my ear, and I shall be infinitely obliged to you.

p/s: you do know who I am quoting, don't you? ;)

[Lyrics cited from: 'Bintang Syurga' by UNIC ft Raqib Majid]